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Today, I’m hanging out with my 3yo, avoiding laundry, reading Helen Boyd’s He’s Not the Man I Married and trying to think about how I feel about Lyn/Ezekiel being at least sort-of trans without getting all intellectual about it. I’m trying to do the internal shit I’m supposed to be doing.

So I’m thinking about sexuality, and how it’s kind of weird that even though I’m a lesbian and have been in only lesbian relationships for something like 22 years I am more attracted to Lyn/Ezekiel the more masculine he is, and then I’m trying to have some smart thought about gender and sexuality, and then it hits me that I checked out a book by JD Robb at the library earlier today because I secretly love the (hetero) sex scenes. Interesting.